june gloom

i havent been in the mood to produce lately. juss been wanting to feed off others art. things are getting harder to explain. im trying to find myself, but i forgot to tell myself where to look if i get lost. im outgrowing my shell again. afraid to see what ill look like on the other side. i dont like what i used to love. i dont know if i changed or are things around me changing. i want a mirror that talks back to me when i question what it sees. i want a conscience instead of voices in my head. i wish someone knew who i was and not who they think i am.